I don’t know if you all realize this

but I was terrified of Madina seeing the thing I said about ‘Now or Never’ getting me to stop self-injuring and I kept voting it down because I was really scared but then there was nowhere else to vote it down to.

and when Nathan said he was proud of me because it’s been over four years I just started crying because that’s one of literally maybe like, three times in my entire life that someone’s told me they were proud of me.

and things have been just so bad lately like I can’t even explain it and there’s really no reason for it but few things in my life have ever given me as much hope as what he just said to me and I keep crying just thinking about it and I feel like an idiot.